I Swear This Has Something to Do with Music

...I'm just not sure how it has something to do with music. Maybe through the notion of writing what you feel. Here's the skinny:

The line from "Let That Be Enough" by Switchfoot is pretty close to accurate: "It's my birthday tomorrow, no one here would know." While my birthday is actually today, it's close enough. I don't make a big deal about birthdays in general, but especially mine. It's just another day, IMO. That being said, it still is my birthday, and that makes today a great day.

On a less-happy note, I'm a little frustrated right now. My parents and I have differing views on what direction I should take come my college graduation in 8 days. They want me to get a full time job with benefits and health care and all that. While that's great and I'd love to have all that, I don't think I want that JUST NOW.

Ideally, I'd love to sell my Pathfinder, buy a motorcycle, head down to Orlando and work at Disney or something for a few months. Then, I'd come home for Christmas, and start working full time at the place I am currently interning. Granted, that is the ideal. But it is highly possible and very feasible that this could work.

The icing on the cake (no pun intended...well, maybe just a little) is that my dad got upset when it was mentioned that someone was complaining that they didn't get to see their friends all summer. I replied with, "I'm working three jobs," to which my dad quickly responded, "I'm working three jobs, too!" However, I'm getting paid for only one of my jobs. Also, I am not trying to support a family; I am a college student and part of that JOB is to have fun and hang out with friends WHILE learning. Let me just say there's more emphasis on the learning part than the other two.

I'm done venting on my birthday. I'm glad to have that over with. On to a happy day!

Dead End or Three-Way Stop?

When trying to write a song, write what you feel. OK, but what about when you aren't even sure of what you're feeling? I try to write my feelings, but I don't know what is going on in my head. It seems to just be a hurricane of emotions and thoughts and dreams. The result is a lot of unfinished work and frustration in failing to be able to know myself. I've never been very good with emotions.

There are times that I get thrown into an emotional funk. I'm not quite sure what ends up pulling me out of it, but I always seem to come around. I can't wait until I do.

For now, I'm not sure if I'm at a dead end or a three-way stop. By that I mean, is my songwriting creativity over, or am I stopped while I determine whether to turn left or right?